Art with Cause

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Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Keep on keeping on

I know I preach: Create!
I know you think: I don't sit home all day in a studio like you do. I don't get to research on the web while my paint dries. My time is stretched over family, work, and other important things.
You should know - time is limited for me as well...

Earlier this year I vowed to myself that I would expose myself a bit more and let myself be more vulnerable because I want my paintings to show my soul and a raw honesty. So in the spirit of keeping it real, I will share with you a bit of my struggle.

I am the busiest unemployed person you will ever meet. I spend most of my day looking for a job (God forbid I miss a great opportunity), and even more time networking. I volunteer at all sorts of things - never want to be accused of sitting back enjoying life while collecting unemployment. I am paying it back every way I can. (and some say I don't have to, but it is the kind of person I am) All this business doesn't change from day to day... I am busy!
...and now more has been added to my plate.
My child plays soccer, which is a huge commitment on a parent and school has started. (Anyone wanna contribute to our fund-raising efforts?) His practices are only an hour and a half long in the evenings, but has taken a huge chunk to time away from me (with transportation... snack and homework before... etc). I am not complaining. I love watching him flourish, but it is honestly harder to create. Just as it is time to pick him up I get this great idea and don't have the time to put it down on paper and by the time I do - it is gone.
Stress sucks creativity out of you. Not having a job or enough unemployment to cover our bills is a bit crippling from time to time. sigh
And my financial buffer that helped us get this far through it (a.k.a. the room mate) is moving out. Which is a whole different set of stressers and time consumers: Sorting out my stuff to make sure her stuff didn't end up mixed in - packing up - boxes everywhere - can't even reach my easel... sigh

I shared all this just to say: I have EVERY EXCUSE (legitimately) NOT TO CREATE.

But I must. I am NOT feeling as inspired as I usually do. But I must keep going. My creations don't have to be amazing. But it must keep flowing from me.
I have been here before and stopped creating. It dries you up really fast. Then it feels like moving a mountain - to pick up a pencil to draw. (If that is where you are, start scribbling!!! You will find your way in practice not in thoughful preparation.)

So I am on this journey to keep on creating.
I will share with you my struggles along the way. Maybe it can inspire you - maybe I will fail and you can see where I took the wrong turn. Maybe it is all a waste of time for you. Maybe it is just for me that I share - keeping me accountable for my actions.
All I know is I cannot stop creating. I dried up and it killed me. Yes, I died once and now have been given a second chance at life. (an abstract story for another time)
So, I am off to crochet - I can reach my yarn even if I cannot reach my easel. Something will pour out of me...

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Art... it is more than just a painting in a museum!

It is a life style. It is a compulsion. It is.. when someone says "hey - the spare room should be cleaned out" and Art can't just put on the radio, pick up a dust cloth and clean.
No! Not Art! Art just oozed out of me and all over the idea!

Empty room - (make house cluttered and unbearable)
Paint room - (paint two thick layers so it takes two days to dry - while house is still unbearable)
Take on a fireplace painting project at someone else's house - (home still cluttered - can't even find the stove - it might be behind that bed standing upright in the kitchen?)
Pull out back - (ah rest.. but only half day cause clutter drives me nuts... do laundry, dust pick-up to try to reclaim order)
Go shopping - (well I did need a new dress for an upcoming wedding)
Vacuum and steam carpet - (well, I lived with the clutter this long and I might as well while all the furniture is out)
Put away all the stuff that isn't going in that room - (this isn't all the way done. Ya see I have to move the cape cod decorations in my room and move some things around to make new "homes" for things. I think I will put the cape cod decorations in the bathroom... which should be painted... and needs a place to put the towels... do I feel a new project?)
Once floor is dry, move back in furniture - (but I debated buying paint for the bathroom first!)

So to rest, I will crochet a throw pillow for the bed in the newly cleaned up room. Maybe even make a curtain. tee hee.

Before and after pics:

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

It has been a week....

So I was hope'n that I could learn of some progress being made on the judging of the show I recently submitted to.
Sadly all I learned is that they extended the deadline to Friday. If I had known I could have tried to create more and see if anything new would be mind blowing... although with the kid going back to school and the rooms in my house needing a fresh coat of paint and some organization before we close up for the winter... I have been busy bleeding my creativity through sweat.
I knew waiting to hear about this one would be hard. I purposely waited until the deadline to submit so the wait wouldn't be as long!
So no holding your breath... it will be a long time 'till I can update you with anything substantial!

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